I had a spent a few years being angry at G-d for some trauma I experienced coupled with health and financial difficulties. I wasn't even sure G-d existed. I didn't know the depth of my anger. I was sitting in church and had a terrible thought about G-d. I thought I had blown it.
I had been so angry at G-d that I compltely forgot about the person of Jesus. In that moment, I realized that I had to depend on Jesus. He was the only thing between me and a righteous God. I had experienced the absence of God's presence in my life for years. Once he reminded me that that their was no hope apart from Jesus, I asked forgiveness for the sin of pride.
Other the next few days, God proved both his existence and his love. He was bigger than anything I had imagined. I realized that G-d knew every sin I had ever commit or would commit. And G-d, in the person of Jesus, chose to die for my sins anyway. When I was felt that G-d was absent, He was there the entire time, waiting for me to turn to him. I realized that God was enormous. He created this universe and perhaps multiple universes. Jesus took an active part in this creation.And yet he chose to love me when I was unlovable. This was the moment I realized that he truly was a king.